I Walked Alone

Waiting on your promises,

I finally gave up.

Only choice left was to fill my cup.

Left me out in the cold

Step by step

Made sure I didn’t fold.

Wanted you to take me,

To go see our baby.

You cared more about work,

And were being such a jerk.

Little did I know

The cold was closer to home,

Didn’t even have anyone to phone.

Kept the news for myself,

No photo going on the shelf.

That day I heard a heartbeat,

Didn’t record it, kept it for me.

And God.

Now all I do is nod,

Can barely keep my head up between these sobs.

It wasn’t meant to be,

And eventually I learned to see,

That ultimately it was best for me.

Left alone to walk in the cold,

In an ice storm,

Tucked inside was the tiniest little form.

My love grew a thousand fold,

Before there was anyone,

To be told.

Two angels looked out for me,

In that moment they could see,

I was alone and in some need.

Their small act of care,

Was all I could bare,

To stop from crying.

With each step,

Telling myself to keep trying.

To put one foot in front of the other,

To get to safety,

No, I’ve learned the hard way, no one’s coming to save me.